Manda McSexipants (mezzomarie) wrote in nightridecrew,
Manda McSexipants

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at long last

1) Horror to me is not necessarily fear.  Horror is the deeper core of fear. It is that part that sticks with you for hours, days or years after something has scared you.  If fear were a flame, horror is the center of the flame that is simply darkness.  Not to be overly poetic about it, but I feel that horror is a pure entity.  It isn't seeing the blood of something chopped up; it's knowing what that blood means, and what it exemplifies. 

2) The list goes pretty far.  Many more than I feel is necessary to list.  A lot of them have touched on what I consider to be horror, but never quite capture it.  I've been working on my horror movie rep since I was about needless to say I'm kind of a vet, but I'm branching out into what the non-American countries have to offer. I have to say, they're getting pretty close to getting it right.  They don't care about what sells...they care about what gets into your mind and sinks a permanent talon in. 

3) I have to say America just doesn't cut the mustard in terms of creepy.  Although my house in Colorado had some special moments...namely when a cup just randomly moved across my desk by itself.  That just kinda creeped me out.  The real ones were during outings in England that took me and my friends through the hardcore woods of England.  The creepiest that comes to memory at the moment is the time we were just wandering through Thetford woods at just after sunset (with flashlights of course) and my friend Kim tripped over something and fell.  It felt a bit too tall to be a fallen limb, not to mention it didn't move.  We shine the flashlights on it and it's a grave stone just randomly in the middle of the woods. I can't remember the name on it, but needless to say, the presence of a grave hundreds of years old just sitting in the middle of the woods is unnerving to a couple of kids.

4) In my experience, though I've never been on what is officially called a "night ride", they are something of an experience to test yourself.  In the vein of "do something every day that scares you".  In the case of the night ride, it's a chance to test your limits.  With the protection of friends, there's no better time to do it.  There aren't many bonds stronger than one made in the throes of intense fear.  Not to mention, there's the great conversation and all around comradery....and tacos.  oh yeah. 

5) Perfect night  Finding something new out about someone I know, someone I didn't know that well, and myself.  While at the same time going somewhere I've never imagined I would go. 

6) For me, gothic is a connection to darkness. The darkness that many of us have inside, and the darkness of night.  Goth is the representation and physical manifestation of these two things.  The misconception people have about it, in my opinion, is that it's all about being sad and depressed and dressing in black.  It's about being in touch with, and embracing those things that we fear about ourselves and other people.  The goth look is a bastardization of something real and far deeper than style.  In essence, their intent is in the right place.  To take a step away from everyone else to be an individual. which, unfortunately means being alone a lot of the time.  Guess that's possibly where the sad loner trait came from. Gothic is daring to be different by acknowledging the black gooey parts inside and using them to gain an understanding of and connection to the rest of the world...dark or light.  It's like a stone that you see sitting on the ground.  You fear the squiggly things underneath, so you're hesitant about delving into the darker side.  But, once you have, you can either let the icked out feeling keep you from ever exploring again, or take that step and use it to appreciate the safety of the surface, but also the change that has taken place because of what's beneath. 

7) What an intense question that is.  My music directly affects and is affected by the kind of night it is.  But, generally speaking, I listen to the strains that tap into some sort of deep emotional core.  I make sure that what I'm listening to makes me feel something.  The type of night it is depends on what the emotion of the evening is.  I'm a music geek, so there are specific traits of music that do it for me.  A song that contains a specific chord, for instance, or one that is in a specific key and includes certain melodic progressions. Night time is generally the time I take to disappear and let myself be.  I disappear into my music.  But, to name some....Lamb ("Angelica") will almost always top the list.  After that, it ranges from Classical and Romantic pieces either instrumental or operatic that are in minor keys (always) to metal (Extol, In Flames, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, Metallica...and Apocalyptica who do cello arrangements of Metallica songs, Ariadna Project) to movie scores (namely Requiem for a Dream, Gattaca, and Solaris).  20th Century minimalists (Charles Ives, Steve Reich, Philip Glass, John Cage) are also big because of their innovation. The sounds they create are so intensely dissonant that they loop around and become beautiful again. There are others, but they span a lot of genres. Let's just say they all have some special aspect that puts me in a musical trance. 

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